Day Four

for Maurice

one time           i had horses

millions of them

             until floating became something

small enough

                        to slip into people’s drinks,

my knees suddenly too weak

to be held onto,

too many foot noises

                        and my own wandering

            grip

people are too lonely

                                                            and mountain like

   to be neighbors

so many drinks hugging skin, slipping

   me

beneath     my seat

long hair is not even that pretty

                                    just as

a poem needs to   throw up

a little

   sometimes,

we find out the accuracy

of liquids

I am no longer     of  identity,

    better

    than grasshoppers  and  ants

these things aren’t important,

            but they’re enough to be

like sleeping     again,

of the waking up

  habits of birdlife,

suddenly,         cold bathwater

and guns lying around,

                        i could        maybe

            shoot melting snow,    running

water, dripping  

            icicles

if that ever happened,                   

i can    go         like this      and

roll right onto you,

   but i have a hard time

        keeping the letters flat

around here,

words share the properties

  of

poorly cut metal, misplaced napkins, water

  more ice cubes than one breath could reach

and that’s life without kissing, anyway,

just my face

  pushing   up

against

            your face